Thursday, September 17, 2009

Face of Faith

9/17/09 Under Construction
I had to stop writing because I had two meetings to attend and the time had slipped up on me. When I came back, I realized how appropriate that phrase was, as I seem to be undergoing an overhaul this year physically and spiritually and my face reflects both of those areas. Physically my face is still under construction as docs continue to reassess and rebuild---so I’ll be able to continue to breathe and say face of faith without tripping on the Fs. Spiritually my face should be reflecting the reality of the faith that has been my anchor.
I seem to be preoccupied with my face lately. It takes a long time in the morning to use the appropriate “wash” recommended by Dr. Ha for post surgery folks, followed by an antioxidant that deters environmental assault on the DNA of the deep dermis---what that means is, it’s very pricey! Then, I have the 45 sunblock topped with the moisturizer with SPF 30. Then I look in the mirror and I’m still shocked by what I see. Friends and students are getting used to my new look. They see me more often than I see myself so I’m still taken back with my somewhat “skewed” look.
I’m sure most of you have heard the old adage, “Put on a happy faith.” Well, I’m no longer willing to “put on” much of anything for the sake of “looking good”---whether it’s make-up or a pious expression. I don’t know if that’s age or spiritual maturity---using that maturity label very loosely. I need to be preoccupied with my insides and hope that will reflect in my face---
Physical progress for my face is going to come from the deep dermis---spiritual growth is going to come from deep within as well.