Sunday, June 20, 2010

CONFESSIONS

6/20/10 I know it’s Sunday, not Wednesday, but I have a confession to make. I’ve been running on empty lately. (I know I’m not suppose to be complaining.) However, fatigue and complaint seem to be going hand in hand around here. Missing my hormone probably didn’t help either---but I should be passed all of those crutches!

“Look, look, my heart is an open book” is what Dean Martin used to sing. That’s sort of the way I feel about my life when I blog. It’s open for folks to read and “know” about me and I don’t like it when I regress yet again in this area of trust. What kind of testimony is that?
I plan and plan and life (as I desire it) still falls apart---from shoes and reservation snafus to hair blotches to STRESS & too many others to mention, partly because I‘m embarrassed. Probably a big part of the problem is focusing on my desires and not God’s.

I just can’t keep it all together for everyone. I guess I really never could; I just thought I could. Today I added guilt to the mix because I felt I’ve not been living what I espouse. Aren’t you (reader) tired of me going back to square one in my spiritual growth?
Why do I have to keep working through these things when I know better? But Dotsy…..that’s my problem. Where’s my “But God”….in this? I tell you where He is. He never moves. He’s in His word.

Trust in Him at all times, O people Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us. (Psalm 62:8)
Singing (prayerfully) the praise song at church today, I was grateful that God does take me as He finds me and fills my life again. Again and again! I just had to “fess up” to Him.
So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again. ("Mighty to Save" lyrics)